日记06 | 我唯一需要做的事情

文学   2020-06-03 22:15  
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【活着】


我的人生,不管是沉沦,还是崛起,不管是卑微,还是闪亮,它都会很精彩,我没有什么是不可以失去的了,在失去最后一样东西——生命——之前,我所要做的事情,没有什么目的,也没有什么别的,我只需要哪怕在最痛苦的时候,默默活着。活着,就有经验进来,就有东西进来,不管它是虚无还是恐惧,是痛苦还是疯狂,用我的生命来承受它,用生命来哭泣,用生命来体会最极限的生命状态,用经验来经验,扩展我的生命边界,扩展我的底线,如果有朝一日它不能承受而崩塌,那就塌吧,塌吧,所有的信念,在废墟里,化成终极,不管是生,还是死,我都有希望看见故乡,我最初睁眼的地方。


【Lyrics】


On bended knee is no way to be free,
匍匐在地无法寻得自由,
Lifting up an empty cup, I ask silently,
高举空杯,我静静地问,
All my destinations will accept the one that's me,
我会接受所有命运对我的安排,
So I can breathe...
这样我才能呼吸,
Circles they grow and they swallow people whole,
人们在不同的圈子里成长和悲伤,
Half their lives they say goodnight to wives they'll never know,
最亲密的伴侣也未必能够体会
A mind full of questions, and a teacher in my soul,
脑中充满了疑问,灵魂深处已有指引,
And so it goes...那就继续吧,
Don't come closer or I'll have to go,
别靠近我,我终将离去,
Holding me like gravity are places that pull,
未知的远方牵引我前进,
If ever there was someone to keep me at home,
如果这里有人让我不忍离去,
It would be you...
那便是你啊,
Everyone I come across, in cages they bought,
我遇到的人都是生活的囚徒,
They think of me and my wandering, but I'm never what they thought,
我与我的足迹并非是他们所想的那样,
I've got my indignation, but I'm pure in all my thoughts,
我也会有愤怒的时刻,但我的思绪都是纯净的,
I'm alive...
我就这样活着,
Wind in my hair, I feel part of everywhere,
风拂过发际,我感受着周围的一切,
Underneath my being is a road that disappeared,
我的脚下是一条消失的路,
Late at night I hear the trees, they're singing with the dead,
寂静的深夜里,我听到树和逝者一块儿歌唱,
Overhead...
萦绕天际,
Leave it to me as I find a way to be,
让我走吧,这便是我的路,
Consider me a satellite, forever orbiting,
我如同那卫星,恒久的绕行,
I knew all the rules, but the rules did not know me,
我懂得所有道理但无法循规蹈矩,
Guaranteed,
我确定(我的心意)……

【done】


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