生命本身就是意义，没有其它的意义。
但你不被允许成为一体和整体。你已经被分裂了，分成好几块。有些已经完全封闭了——你甚至不知道它们属于你。有一些被扔到地下室，有一些被谴责，即使你知道它在那，也不会接受它是你的一部分——你继续否认它，继续压抑它。
你只知道你内在一个小小的碎片，人们称之为良知，那是社会的产物，不是天生就有的，是社会在你里面创造出来用于从内在控制你的。警察、法院从外面控制你，良知从内在控制你，那比外在的控制更有力。
那就是为什么即使在法庭上，他们也会先给你一本圣经，让你对着圣经发誓。法官也知道，如果你是一个基嘟徒，把你的手放在圣经上然后说，“我发誓说的都是真实的，完全真实，绝无虚言，”你的良知会迫使你说出真相，因为你以上帝之名发了誓，你触碰了圣经。如果说谎你将会下地狱。
在这之前，如果你被抓住，顶多是扔进监狱几个月，几年。而现在你会被丢进地狱永世不得翻身。就连法官也知道圣经、吉踏经、可兰经比法院、军队、武器更有力量。良知是人类最卑鄙的发明之一。从孩子出生的第一天起，我们就开始在他的内在创造良知，有一小部分持续在谴责社会不希望你做的，赞扬社会希望你做的。你不再是一个整体。
良知持续向你施压，所以你必须一直向外看——上帝在看着你。每一个行为，每一个思想，上帝都在看着，所以小心点！
你甚至连思想都是不自由的：上帝在看着。这个上帝是个怎样的偷窥狂？透过每一个钥匙孔去偷窥浴室，他不会放过你——即使是在浴室？
世界上有一些部落，甚至在梦里如果你做了什么错事，早上你必须去找那个人……比如，在梦里你侮辱了某人——早上你必须向他道歉：“请原谅，昨天晚上我在梦里侮辱你了，对不起。”甚至连梦都被社会控制了。即使是做梦你都不被允许做自己。他们不断地谈论思想自由——那都是荒谬的，因为在最开始他们就为每一个孩子的思想不自由做了铺垫。
他们想要控制你的思想，他们想要控制你的梦，他们想要控制你的每一件事。透过狡猾的工具——良知，它会刺痛你。它一直在告诉你，“这样是不对的，不要做，你会受苦。”它一直强迫你：“做这个，这是对的，你会得到奖励。”
这个良知永远不会允许你成为完整的，它不会允许你没有禁忌、没有制约地活着，不会允许你完全独立地成为你能够成为的。那样生命就会有意义，生活就会有意义——不是透过结果衍生出来的意义，而是生命本身赋予的意义。那么，无论你做什么，那个过程就是奖励。
比如，我在这里对你们讲话，我非常享受它。我没有任何目的地持续讲了35年，这么多演讲我完全能成为一个总统、一个首相，没有问题。有这么多演讲我可以实现任何事，而我得到了什么？但首先我并不是为了得到什么——我很享受这样做。
这就是我的画，这就是我的歌，这就是我的诗。
只是在某些时刻，当我说话的时候，我感觉到连结发生了，在某些时刻，我看到你的眼睛灵光乍现，当我看到你领悟了要点……这些给了我无与伦比的快乐，我不认为还需要更多。
去行动，把每一个行动都做到全然，投入你全身的每一根纤维……比如，如果你绑上我的手我将无法说话，尽管手和说话没什么关系，但我试过，有一天，我告诉一个朋友，“把我的两只手绑上。”
他说，“什么？”
我说，“绑就好了，然后向我提问。”
他说，“我一直害怕和你在一起，你这么疯狂。现在如果有人看到我把你的手绑上，再问你话，然后你回答我，他们会怎么想？”
我说，“忘掉那些，关上门，按我说的做。”
他照做了，他必须照做，否则我会把他赶出去并且说，“来我这里作客，你甚至不能为我做这么点小事吗？那就别来烦我，走开。”
于是他把我的手绑在两根柱子上，然后问了我一个问题。我尝试了每一种可能，但手被绑着，我无法对他说任何事。我只能说，“请解开我的手。”
他说，“但我无法理解这到底是为了什么。”
我说，“我只是想试试看，没有双手配合我还能不能讲话，不行。”和手有什么关系……如果我把这条腿放在另一边，另一条腿放在上面——那就是坐在房间里不说话时候的坐法……如果我把它放在另一条腿下面，那么就会有什么不对劲，我会不自在。所以我坐着的方式，我手移动的方式，都是完全相关的。我并不是只用一部分在讲话，我的每一个部分都参与其中。而只有这样你才能发现行动的内在价值，否则你一定活在紧张里，被这里那里、这个那个遥远的目标拉扯着。
伪棕教会说，“当然，这个生命只是一个工具，所以你不需要全然地投入其中，它只是一个必经的阶梯。它并没有什么价值，只是一个垫脚石，那真实的生命在远处。”就这样，它一直保持在远处。无论你在哪，真实的生命一直都在远处，所以无论你在哪，你都会一直错过生命。
Living itself is the point. There is no other point.
But you have not been allowed to remain one and whole. You have been divided, cut into several parts. A few parts have been completely closed--so much so that you don’t know even that they belong to you. Much of you has been thrown in the basement. Much of you has been so condemned that although you know it is there, you cannot dare to accept it, that it is part of you--you go on denying it; you go on repressing it.
You know only a very small fragment in you, which they call conscience, which is a social product, not a natural thing, which society creates inside you to control you from inside. The constable is outside, the court is outside controlling you. And the conscience is inside, which is far more powerful.
That’s why even in court they will first give you the Bible. You take the oath on the Bible because the court also knows that if you are a Christian, putting your hand on the Bible and saying,“I swear to tell the truth, the whole truth, and nothing but the truth,”your conscience will force you to speak the truth, because now you have taken the oath in the name of God, and you have touched the Bible. If you speak a lie you will be thrown into hell.
Before, at the most, if you were caught you would be thrown into imprisonment for a few months, a few years. But now you will be thrown into hell for eternity. Even the court accepts that the Bible is more powerful, the Gita is more powerful, the Koran is more powerful than the court, than the military, than the army.Conscience is one of the meanest inventions of humanity. And from the very first day the child is born we start creating a conscience in him; a small part which goes on condemning anything that the society does not want in you, and goes on appreciating anything that the society wants in you. You are no longer whole.
The conscience continuously goes on forcing you, so that you have to always look out--God is watching. Every act, every thought, God is watching, so beware!
Even in thoughts you are not allowed freedom: God is watching. What kind of peeping Tom is this God? In every bathroom he is looking through the keyhole; he won’t leave you alone--even in your bathroom?
There are tribes in the world where even in your dream if you do something wrong, in the morning you have to go to the person… For example you have insulted somebody in your dream--in the morning you have to go to apologize:“Forgive me, last night I insulted you in a dream; I am so sorry.”Even dreams are controlled by the society. You are not allowed even in a dream to be yourself. They go on talking about freedom of thought--that’s all nonsense because from the very beginning they put the base in every child for unfreedom of thought.
They want to control your thoughts. They want to control your dreams. They want to control everything in you. It’s through a very clever device--conscience. It pricks you. It goes on telling you,“This is not right, don’t do it; you will suffer.”It goes on forcing you: “Do this, this is the right thing to do; you will be rewarded for it.”
This conscience will never allow you to be whole. It won’t allow you to live as if there is nothing prohibited, as if there are no boundaries, as if you are left totally independent to be whatsoever you can be. Then life has meaning, then living has meaning--not the meaning that is derived from ends, but the meaning that is derived from living itself. Then whatever you do, in that very doing is your reward.
For example, I am speaking to you. I am enjoying it. For thirty-five years I have been continually speaking for no purpose. With this much speaking I could have become a president, a prime minister; there was no problem in it. With so much speaking I could have done anything. What have I gained? But I was not out for gain in the first place--I enjoyed.
This was my painting, this was my song, this was my poetry.
Just those moments when I am speaking and I feel the communion happening, those moments when I see your eyes flare up, when I see that you have understood the point… They give me such tremendous joy that I cannot think anything can be added to it.
Action, any action done totally, with every fiber of your being in it… For example, if you bind my hands I cannot speak, although there is no relationship between hands and speaking. I have tried.One day, I told a friend who was staying with me,“Tie both my hands.”
He said,“What?”
I said,“Just tie them, and then ask a question.”
He said,“I am always afraid to stay with you, you are crazy. And now if somebody sees that I have tied your hands, and now I am asking a question and you are answering it, what will they think?”
I said,“Forget all that. Close the door and do what I say.”
He did, because he had to do it; otherwise I would have thrown him out, saying,“And being my guest, you cannot even do this simple thing for me? Then don’t bother me at all, just get lost.”
So he tied my hands to two pillars, and he asked me a question. I tried in every possible way, but my hands were tied; I could not say anything to him. I simply said,“Please untie my hands.”
He said,“But I cannot understand what this is all about.”
I said,“It is simply that I was trying to see whether I could speak without my hands. I cannot.”What to say about hands… If I put this leg on the other side, and the other leg on top of it--which is the way I sit in my room when I am not speaking… If I have to put it under the other leg, then something goes wrong, then I am not at home. So the way I am sitting, the way my hands move, is a total involvement. It is not only speaking from a part of me; everything in me is involved in it. And only then can you find the intrinsic value of any act. Otherwise you have to live the life of tension, stretched between here and there, this and that faraway goal.
The pseudo-religions say,“Of course, this life is only a means so you cannot be involved in it totally; it is only a ladder you have to pass. It is not something valuable, just a stepping-stone. The real thing is there, far away.”And so it always remains far away. Wherever you will be, your real thing will be always far away. So wherever you will be, you will be missing life.
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