而我印象最深的是我宿舍旁边的一条半米多宽十米多深的死胡同，最里面有一个极大的老鼠洞，我知道里面住着一只巨型的老鼠，毛色如棕色的猪一般，我的气枪又被人借走了，于是我就出去买了一个特大号的锯齿型的老鼠夹，跟夹狼的同款，用实心铜电线把老鼠夹绑死在窗鈎上放在那个大洞口前，只要进出必须碰到机关，半夜弄完睡觉，第二天一大早我被窗外剧烈的挣扎声吵醒，我想也没想从门后抄起一根长棍就冲了出去。
那是我见过的最大的老鼠，两只前爪被牢牢夹住，正在拼命的咬那根电线，当我们大眼瞪小眼四目相对的时候，它的毛我的毛都立起来了，它开始奋力的往高处跳，这条死胡同的出路只有我这边，标准的cornered——走投无路，我们俩都别无选择，我必须打死它，它必须负隅顽抗即使有一线希望，我估计战场上拼刺刀的人跟我俩的生理反应一样，血脉喷张，我抡起棍子就打，它在明白走投无路的时候，直接带着大号老鼠夹子往我脸上冲，它的后腿强劲有力，加上肾上腺素马力全开一次攻击能跳起一米来高，我其实跟它一样恐惧，一样大量的分泌肾上腺素，恐惧和肾上腺素引来疯狂，我高喊着疯狂的劈头盖脸打了几十棍子，一直打到满墙满地是血……
这种情绪以后我再也没经历过，这跟打架斗殴不一样，这是在法律控制之外的一边倒的谋杀，我完全强势，它竭尽所能的想恐吓我，吓退我哪怕希望渺茫。
于是在2000年，我自己拍了这么张照片对着画了这么张画。
What impressed me the most was a dead-end alley more than half a meter wide and more than ten meters deep next to my dormitory. There was a huge rat hole at the innermost part. I knew there was a giant rat living inside. Its fur color was like that of a brown pig. My air gun had been borrowed by someone, so I went out and bought an extra-large serrated rat trap, the same kind as the one used to trap wolves. I tied the rat trap firmly to the window hook with a solid copper wire and placed it in front of the big hole. As long as it entered or exited, it had to touch the mechanism. After setting it up in the middle of the night, I went to sleep. The next morning, I was awakened by the violent struggling sound outside the window. Without thinking, I grabbed a long stick from behind the door and rushed out.
That was the biggest rat I had ever seen. Its two front paws were firmly caught in the trap and it was desperately biting that wire. When our eyes met, both its fur and mine stood on end. It started to jump vigorously upward. The only way out of this dead-end alley was on my side. It was in a standard cornered situation - with no way out. Both of us had no choice. I had to kill it, and it had to put up a desperate resistance even with a slim hope. I guess the physiological reactions of people fighting with bayonets on the battlefield were the same as ours, with surging blood. I swung the stick to hit it. When it realized it was in a hopeless situation, it directly rushed towards my face with the large rat trap. Its hind legs were strong and powerful. With the adrenaline running at full power, it could jump one meter high with each attack. Actually, I was as fearful as it was, and also secreted a large amount of adrenaline. Fear and adrenaline led to madness. I shouted and hit it dozens of times wildly until the wall and the ground were full of blood...
I have never experienced this kind of emotion again since then. This is different from a fight. This is a one-sided murder outside the control of the law. I was completely in the dominant position. It tried its best to intimidate me and scare me off even though the hope was slim.
So in 2000, I took such a photo and painted such a picture according to it.
